Action

Understanding yourself first and foremost means accepting yourself, with all your “shortcomings”. That’s perhaps the most difficult task set before you, set by you yourself.
Accepting yourself means acknowledging everything to yourself, and that’s why most of you keep your eyes shut because it’s easier not to know something than to live with knowledge but not take action. Then, you begin to get a “guilty conscience”, as you say, and you start going around in circles of your failures and suffer because of them, because of inaction and because of self-doubt.
Put an end to all of that now. Stop all the thoughts that came up in your mind as you were reading those sentences and saw yourself in them. Try to pause the moment, and yourself in it, and ask yourself, “Can I really not do anything about that? Can I really not act for my highest good?” Of course you can! There’s nothing you can’t do.
Taking action is a component of your life. You take action every day; action is what moves you, it’s your engine. And maybe you don’t always like the way you act, but what matters is that you do. Even when you’re sleeping, you’re taking action, you’re allowing your body to rest. You’re taking action and producing rest.
Try to compose yourself and become still in one place. Allow your body to relax and surrender to the deepest silence possible. Look at all the thoughts which come to you and let them go; that’s all you can do with them anyway. Allow time to pass that way and just be present in your body.
When you feel you’ve attained a kind of peace, imagine yourself walking through a beautiful field. You’re surrounded by a multitude of scents and colors, and your emotions are mixing with them. You can feel that field more and more and you feel freedom entering your whole body. You give into it. You walk and enter freedom, and freedom enters you.
After a while, you begin to approach a white canvas. It’s stretched out in the middle of the field and is entirely empty. After you get close enough to it, you see there are letters written out on it, spelling the sentence: “What is your next course of action?”
After that, after you’ve read that sentence, you give in, you surrender to yourself because each thought, each image, each memory, each vision or emotion is part of your response. They’re part of your inner wisdom as to which direction to focus your action.
Its’ precisely the direction of action that matters. You’re constantly taking action, you’re like an engine which can’t be stopped and can only change direction.
And don’t question, don’t analyze the answer you receive in terms of its validity. It “came out of you” and can’t be anything but correct. You must just accept the answer as advice from someone who knows you best, someone who can best direct you towards your future, who has your map with the directions. And surrender. The rapids which will carry you away know you best, and they know which shore you need to wash up on.
They know which shore you’ll be able to reach the next field and the next signpost from. Surrender to the journey and allow it to guide you. Those are your signposts, your road signs, it’s you who placed them there, and it’s you who can understand them best.
The moment you begin to have faith in yourself in the face of the greatest disbelief, all the fields, all the canvases, all those signs will move through you with the ease of the existence you deserve.