Efforts

Endeavors to become what you’re not, what you think you should be, take you down paths that aren’t always well-lit. Those dark places within you hide a multitude of little traps which you don’t notice in your efforts to reach the goal you have set yourself. And if you do notice them, you think you’ll deal with them when you arrive where you so desperately yearn to reach.
And then those things take you back to the beginning. Why? Because when you reach the end of the road, you’ll see that you didn’t cover the entire path; you skipped over the dark parts by just ignoring them, not looking at what they were hiding. That’s why you haven’t gone down the whole path, and therefore, you’re not able to understand what is awaiting you at the finish line.
You then think you must have made a wrong turn and go back, trying every way possible to get to what you had set out to reach. You can spend your whole life waiting to reach your goal and to find what you expect at the finish line.
Some of you who reach your goal feel disappointed, because “that” isn’t what you imagined; you imagined “something” entirely different. And then you turn around and keep on looking.
The only right way to do this is to head down your path, through all its dark and light parts, without expecting anything at the end. It’s best to think that there is no end because there isn’t, and with that, you stop waiting for the end. That way, you won’t find anything, and you’ll realize what your path is: your life. As you travel it, you’ll understand it, and that’s the greatest blessing you can give yourself because nobody else can show you that, nobody can explain your life to you, but you.
Sometimes, joy is the only expectation at the end of that road. You travel, and the only thing you want is to feel the joy of existence, of being alive. If, on your journey, you were to take just a brief look out of the window, you’d find at least three things which could make you joyful.
Try, right now, to look around you and find at least three things in your life which can bring a smile to your face this very moment. It might seem hard at first but take a better look. Maybe you see your neighbour’s cat clumsily climbing the rooftop, and maybe it makes you smile with how tenacious and cool it is. That cat, too, is part of your life at that moment—you’re looking at it, you’re thinking about it, and what is life but a collection of your thoughts…. A chronology of your existence.
By trying to reach the goal you’ve set yourself, you’re missing life and all its beauty. In doing so, you’re saying that your current life is not good, that it will only become good when this or that happens. You’re denying your own existence. Why? Because of made-up things which you’ve chosen for yourself.
How do you know what is best for you? Where does that faith come from? If you know for sure that you have that faith, then use it now. Have it show you the beauty of your life today. Help it reveal to you all the charms that your life is hiding from you. Then even painful moments become meaningful because you’ll have created them.
The moment you create your own meaning in your present-day life, all doors will open for you because you’ll rise to the throne when you take control of your own existence and when you yourself give it meaning. After that, it’s just up to you how much meaning you’ll give it.