Liberation

The emergence of each of your inner attitudes built on your experience frees you from your mental projections on "What’s life?"
That’s why experiences are good for you, exceptionally good, because they force you to knock down the barriers and walls that you build inside you with your excessive thinking and overanalyzing.
And then, gradually, a sense of liberation begins to grow in you. This sort of liberation never comes in its entirety, but in waves, in flashes of wisdom, which, like the sun, pierce through after the rain and light up all you fears, all your destructive thoughts, showing them in a light which is sometimes hard to accept, but which leads to a denouement.
What should liberation be like? How do you imagine it? Is it a comfortable life that you want, a life which can bring you happiness through material things, people, and places?
If that’s what you consider “liberation”, you still have a long time to wait, and beyond certain happy moments, the liberation will most likely never come.
Liberation, in its fullest sense, means being unattached, unattached to anything, not even to yourself. Allow everything to distance itself from you to a point where it can be seen from afar, from an entirely different angle. And that doesn’t mean you now have to pick up your things, say goodbye to everyone, including yourself, and go off to live in a forest. It means you have to agree to free yourself from the chords that tie you to the people and events which surround you; remove yourself with an inner distance that allows you to observe yourself as if you were observing someone else—to give yourself space, to give your life space, to breathe, to live.
The next exercise is easy, even though it doesn’t appear so at first glance. Try to do it for a while with everything you do, and monitor your progress:
Think of a challenging situation, and when you feel a knot beginning to grow inside you, imagine it to be a solid substance growing harder and harder…monitor your whole body with your “inner” vision and with a feeling that you’re collecting into a pile that knot, that pain which that particular situation has brought you.
After you’ve gathered everything into a pile, look at it and express your gratitude. That’s you, that’s what you’ve become while going through your experiences. So, thank it joyfully. And then begin breathing in light and breathing out darkness, allowing part of that rigid pile you’ve amassed to make its way out of you, out of your entire body, all your pores, with every exhale. Inhale and exhale until you get the feeling that you’ve expelled all those piled up emotions, all the pain, all the experiences you’ve collected. Then express your gratitude once more and move on.
In the beginning, you’ll need to do the exercise more often and for longer periods of time because there’s a lot of pain and a lot of accumulated emotions inside you. But as time goes on, you’ll feel relief as soon as you begin collecting pain and emotions from around your body. They’ll come out of you with joy and speed. This exercise can also help you disidentify with those emotions because by gathering them from around your body and releasing them, you’ll come to see more easily that you’re not them, you’re not your emotions. They’re transient in your life and should be accepted as such. So, collect them, release them, live. Allow the freedom which you deserve to flow through you.